Life is a Beautiful Disaster
“On particularly rough days when I am sure I can’t possibly endure, i like to remind myself that my track record is getting through bad days so far is 100% .. and that’s pretty good.” -unknown
When people ask me how my off season is going I joke and say, “What Off Season?” I was looking forward to the wedding season and the holiday season ending so I can catch up on my life. I was looking into diving into my “off season” goals of getting organized, cleaning the bomb of an apartment, and going on dates with my man. This has not happened yet – with a wild heart filled with ideas and dreams I have been non stop planning, designing and building this amazing dream career of mine.
If the above sounds like your dream job – let me tell you the reality of my dream. This week was one of those weeks where I have thought about quitting and I felt like a failure at everything I was building and dreaming of. I spent 4 out of the 5 days crying, screaming and throwing things. One of those days I met with two of my dearest friends where we spilled our lives to each other – we were all having killer weeks. During this lunch we built each other up, we told each other what we already knew but we only listened when our loved ones tell us. And sometimes this takes a few dozen times, but we need you do beat it into us. I don’t know what I would do with the people I surround myself with – a community of people is what makes us all strong. This is another reason why I wanted to start the RAD PHOTOGRAPHERS RETREAT – I want to build people up when they need it most. It is now the end of the week and what came of this horrible horrible week? Something freaking more awesome than what it was before the ceiling came crashing down! The sunshine after the tornado.
If you are reading this and you’ve been having a really horrible week, day or month – you are not alone. Sometimes life throws us for a loop – every time we fall, it doesn’t matter how or when we get back up, it just matters that we get back up. If you are in need of someone to be in your community, I am here to chat, build you up and remind you just how awesome you really are!
you are loved, you are enough & you are awesome!
with love, christine
ps – I am thankful for my friend Pribb for the quote at the beginning of this blog – it was posted at the perfect time this week – when I was feeling my lowest. I am now repeating it in my head – daily.