Confession Friday / Balance
You may have seen on my social media that I have been talking a lot of about balance. I am cutting my wedding load for 2016 Summer-Fall Weddings, I will only be booking 10 more weddings. Why, you may ask!? I simply adore what I do and those I get to work with, but my family and personal life has been taking a hit hard the past 2 years. With a growing photography business I thought you had to be busy to be successful, but I am going to tell you something that may shock you. Being busy does not mean success. I am a natural born workaholic since college, I have always had 2, sometimes 3 jobs. It never felt right when I just had one, I always searched for another one. Boy was it easier to work long hours and get up early. But once I hit 29, that was all over …. just like those nights you only have 3 cocktails and you head is spinning the next day.
The past few weeks I have felt like a hamster on a wheel. Feeling so run down, wanting to curl up in a ball and forget about the world around me. I have this insane desire to make people happy and to be better than I was yesterday. I have talked with friends and it makes me feel at ease a little when I hear they are feeling the same way. Why ease? Because just saying the words and hearing that they feel the same anxiety lifts some of the weight you have on your heart. Photography is a very personal career, you are sharing a little piece of yourself when you capture someones memories. You are sharing your heart and creativity. Sharing a different perspective on the world, showing that there just may be something beautiful out of something ugly. I was reminded just this week when a client shared a wedding photo with his family I took of them under a really ugly pine tree, was a beautiful photo of them. Yes I made an ugly raggedy pine tree beautiful!
“Happiness is not a matter of intensity but of balance, order, rhythm and harmony.” ~Thomas Merton
This quote above got me thinking, and is causing me to change things for 2016. These changes are for the better for both me and my clients. I will be taking more time to relax, reflect, and work on my creativity. Weddings and Sessions sadly sometimes goes into robot mode. Taking time to create for me, read more to exercise my brain, and to learn from fellow creatives at workshops. With all this, I will also be taking a vacation in the midst of the summer to refresh. I am also planning a little retreat of fellow woman photographers so we can learn, relax, and lean on each other. I am excited about the rest of 2015, and the already awesome list of weddings I have for 2016!
I want you all to reach out to your husband, best friend, pastor or family member, someone who will raise you up when you have that moment where you feel like breaking. Even if you just need them to hug you or hold your hand, sometimes we just need to feel like we are not alone. I am lucky enough to have a few people in my life that I depend on when I feel like curling up into a ball, and without them I seriously might have crumbled. You can even email me and I will be there for you – I will help in anyway I can.
cheers to balance – christine
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